So, it doesn't sound as obvious or clear on camera.

She can mimic 'Auntie' and 'Thank you'.  But today she said "Shoe".  And ran to Micah's shoes and put her foot inside one.  And when I opened the fridge this morning she said "epahl".  It sounds funny, but she obviously said apple.  She clapped her hands and her face lit up when I pulled an apple out of the fridge.  It's the small things that get me so excited.  

This may not be the most appropriate way of telling news, but...... I am pregnant, again.  It's hard to talk about what's going on when I feel bad 80% of the time and I can't talk about it.  I have wanted to be pregnant since Lydia was like 3 months old.  But being sick is the pits.  We have been working with Lydia to say "I'm going to be a big sister".  So far it sounds like, "sisa".  She has brightened my icky sick days.  Micah has been busy, but he works so hard to help me out.  He is quite wonderful.  

About a year ago someone asked me who I thought my main support system would be during my time here.  I really thought that my team and my church back home would be my main support.  This week the Lord is really showing me how much I need the church here!  I need the local church.  Our team is a wonderful support system, better than I could have asked.  However, the Lord has orchestrated me to be needy of the church.  And I am feeling it.  I have assumed I am not needy of the church here since I landed here.  And now I am seeing clearly how lonely and segregated I can become when I am blind to how I need others.  I am praying that the Lord would use Wednesday morning Bible Study and Friday night cell group to better connect me to people in CDPC.  At first I was overwhelmed with how much I felt I needed to do to connect to people.  But then I remembered King's Chapel.  Our transition from college students (aka temporary status) to being a family in the church was hard.  We worked hard to spend time with people and get to know people.  But it was those the Lord brought to us that became our closes friends.  We did not have to expend ourselves.  The Lord always provides.  We need not go to extreme measures.  This testimony of my very own gives me peace as I am now once again waiting.  

I am ashamed to say that often I fall into the mindset of searching for what I can offer those around me.  This leaves me thinking that I have no need for them, but they need me.  I pray the Lord continues to break me, that I would be willing to receive as well.  What arrogance to think I need not receive anything from those around me.  I think I am slow to think on these things because I see my number one role as being a wife and a mother.  But I long to live in community.  I can see community around me.  And I believe the Lord has great things in store.  This week, as I have been pondering these things, I have been so excited.  It feeling the promises the Bible tells me.  Like I have something to look forward to and that the Lord is working and HE is not done with me yet.