My little Joy

Well, I guess I feel really busy.  But I feel that way even now, as I sit on my couch while Lydia naps and Micah is away.  I am not really busy.  I think our new pace of life is catching up with me.  Yesterday by 1p.m. I told Darlene with no sarcasm or smile, "I hate today!" It just felt like everything was so hard.  I had breakfast with some ladies from the church and went with some other friends to IKEA.  That sounds like a wonderful day!!!  Why did it feel so hard?  Well, we did have a total of 8 kids and four carts full of IKEA goodies.  

Lydia is still easily frustrated, but her screaming is not as frequent.  Today she has been very quiet.  We walked around our area and picked up several essentials like diapers, peanut butter crackers, refried beans.  You know, the essentials.  We also bought a guard rail for her big girl bed.  I don't think she is ready, but we want to be ready when she is.  She recently woke up two nights in a row at 3 a.m. and did not want to lay down in her crib.  So I put her in her twin bed barricaded with pillows and other pieces of furniture.  She laid down with a smile, blew me a kiss and slept until 10:30 a.m.   Last night she did not wake, so she slept all night in her crib. 

I know I say this a lot, but Lydia is so wonderful to have around!!  She really makes me smile when nothing else can.  Even when she is upset and needy, it feels so good the be able to drop everything and be her mom first!  That is my job!  And I love it!  All of these other things that exhaust me I can limit or just not do.  But Lydia is the one thing that I always say yes to with no question.  She really has been my companion when Micah is out and about.  The Lord has given me wonderful sisters that have served me so well and loved me in the hard times and the not so hard times.  Friends that listen and speak in such a selfless manner.  But Lydia is a totally different kind of refueling for me.  I just love her!  With all of the unfamiliarity and being so far away from home, I am finding that my home is where my family is!  I was so scared that having a baby would be an extra burden.  Now I can't imagine doing this without her.